…I leave for Uganda. That’s really hard to believe. As the days fly by, I alternate between being extremely excited and extremely overwhelmed. There is a lot to pull together in the next few weeks – plane tickets, visas, immunizations, not to mention the small matter of raising $14,000. Currently I am at about 5% of my needed support, with another 20% tentatively pledged to come.
Through this process of raising support, I’ve realized a very important truth about myself: I’m sort of a control freak. (Well, to be totally honest, I probably already knew that about myself. But it seems to be an especially unfortunate character trait in this context). I like to be able to use my own abilities, energy, and time to achieve the results I need. And so I’ve brainstormed lists of potential supporters, gathered addresses, revised my budget… and still, I know that the most important and necessary thing I can do at this point is just wait, and trust. Trust that God unmistakably brought this opportunity to me – and thus He will be the one to see it to completion. Trust that God can bring the resources I need when I need them. Trust that God answers prayers – which probably means I need to start spending a bit more time committing all these worries to Him instead of fidgeting nervously with my budgeting spreadsheet in Excel.
I suppose this blog post makes me sound more discouraged than I actually am. So just to clear up any misconceptions, let me say this: YES, I am excited to go to Kampala and am confident that the Lord will lead me through all the necessary steps to get there. I am just realizing that this process of waiting and trusting does not come easily to me.
Will you pray with me, that I will learn to depend on the Lord’s provision while I prepare for Uganda?